She went
ahead to explain that my action that night did not take her by surprise.
She had always seen it coming. She only said she prayed it wouldn’t
come sooner than later. How I managed to overcome my lust that night
remains a mystery to her, she said. She even said she was disappointed
when I didn’t pull through that night, even though she gave me a good
remark for not pulling through. I didn’t really understand that
statement of hers. She also went ahead to tell them all I went through
just to win her heart afterwards. Things like me joining the choir after
she had stopped visiting me and all that. It was so much fun listening
to her talk about me like I wasn’t there. The feeling is damn good! If
you’ve not been in such position before, try to.
“My brother’s
presence at my house helped matters a lot, Ogechi continued her story;
Prince charming couldn’t visit me like he would have done if my brother
wasn’t around. Neither did he ask me out anymore. He was so busy trying
to gain a place in my heart without raising any ill suspicions. Little
did he know that he owned my heart. Though I was pushing him away, I was
afraid he might leave. So I was careful not to suggest to him with my
actions that I didn’t want him around anymore. My brother left a while
later and we resumed all that was paused.
It wasn’t
long before he broke his silence to me at a bar he took me to one of
those days. He asked me to be his girl in the most poetic way ever. Like
I said, I was already in love with that guy, so when he poured out his
heart to me, I couldn’t pretend to be glad about the development, and
that made him think I was still contemplating on whether to give him a
chance or not. However, I knew that with he and I formally dating,
things between he and I would escalate to another level where I wouldn’t
have to think twice should he demand for a piece of me. Was I ready for
that? The answer is no. But who was I to decline when I had fallen head
over hills for him. So I consented verbally in due course and we sealed
it with our first kiss. It may have been more if the atmosphere was
conducive enough but you dare not try that inside Oliva Twist no matter
how much more you want.
The Romeo and
Juliet started in earnest between us. There was no end to our public
hugs and kisses on campus, especially as he had switched to my school
and was in the same department with me. That was my idea, and I reaped
the reward dearly. Six months passed and he hadn’t demanded for the
cookie yet. Apparently, he was afraid I might push him away again if he
made such advances towards me. I don’t know if I would have been able to
withhold my body from him if he asked for it, but fact remains that my
fears didn’t let me do it, as much as I would have loved to. All he
needed to do was succumb to the pressure for just once, and it would
have been a different ball game.
I’ve heard of
some girls who clearly defined the terms their relationship with a guy
to be without love making before entering into it, and that was only if
the guy agreed to such terms. In my case, there was no such agreement,
but that’s exactly what it was until we graduated from school. Never for
once was anything done towards that direction and we got so used to
being that way to a point where we forgot that we could choose to do it
and face the consequences later. I guess none of us was ready for such
consequences. Instead, we started chasing dreams. He motivated and
encouraged me a lot. He took me to studios and opened me up to some set
of people I was normally afraid of. One of those days we came across a
singer called Ck. Some of you here know him. Ck proposed that I work
with him as his backup singer. I agreed and that was how I hit the wall
of fame and started living my dream. That was also the initial point of
my separation from my Prince Charming.
To be frank
with you all, I got a little selfish. Never in my life had I been so
celebrated. I was treated like I was a diva. The attention was much more
than I could handle, the love people showed me was intoxicating, and
the preferential treatment I kept getting everywhere I went got into my
head that I halted my affair with Prince Charming in order to get enough
of the good feeling, but I still loved him. Suddenly, everyone wanted
to identify and curry favor with me. I was barely alone so we couldn’t
spend time together anymore. I wasn’t afraid of losing him because I had
gotten to know over the years that it took more than a nice body and
features to get his attention. I also knew that I had eaten too deep
into his soul for him to let go of me like that, especially with the
fact that we hadn’t known each other beyond the surface yet. I took
advantage of all those and left to explore the world I had always
dreamed of over the years.
I came to
America after graduation to join Ck as his backup singer. Communication
between me and Prince Charming was flowing decreasingly. I tried to wrap
things up in America and go back to him but was informed by Ck’s
manager that I won’t be going back anytime soon because Ck was getting
numerous invitations to perform at different locations all over the
world, and I would have to go with him to back him up. I couldn’t
believe that was happening to me. I had to choose between my dreams and
Prince Charming. I called him and told him the situation of things
except the part that I wasn’t coming home anytime soon. The last thing
Prince Charming would do is to stop me from pursuing my dreams, so I
didn’t want to put him in a situation of having to choose whether to
pursue my dreams or come back to him. I summoned courage one day and
told him I wasn’t coming home soon and that was when things between us
went obviously bizarre.
I got so busy
that I couldn’t even take Prince Charming’s calls anymore because I was
somewhere performing or rehearsing when he called. I only found out
that he called from my manager or his voice messages. I got rich, I got
famous, but I got lonely. I wanted to ask him to come over to me here
but my manager objected, saying my label won’t condone such and that he
was going to draw me backward with his loser’s mentality. It was clear
my manager didn’t want him around and if I got stubborn and went ahead
to bring him over, he and my manager would always be involved in a
clash. I didn’t want that for anyone, so I just stayed back in America
and hoped that fate will keep what is mine for me.
For a long
period of time, he and I did not communicate and I couldn’t help but
wonder if he had replaced me with someone else already. I had no means
of getting such information, so I just believed that he will still end
up in my arms no matter where he had strayed to. After a while of not
communicating with him, it seemed like I had gotten used to being
without him. And since there were so much to do, it kind of skipped my
mind that Prince Charming existed. But I knew in my heart that I was in
love, and with no one else but him.
Things
gradually unfolded as Ogechi kept pouring her heart out unreservedly. My
eyes got wet and tears nearly rolled down my eyes when I braced up
myself as a man and gnashed my teeth as I snapped out of that emotional
state. So Ogechi didn’t really abandon me after all like I thought. She
was just succumbing to pressure she couldn’t stand against. Then I found
out all I needed to find out. She had always loved me all those years
and was yearning for us to get together again. But why was she telling
these people all these things? I asked myself. Why did she go as far as
telling them about the romance aspect of it? She even talked about
bleeping! Like seriously, that was way out of the box. I started
wondering why and couldn’t believe that Ogechi would let strangers in on
such details. But it appeared I was greatly mistaken because she did
more than talk about her romance with me. She went ahead to tell them a
whole lot more about her romance, but this time, not with me.
To be continued.
